- A FLASH OF HOPE -
The dark clouds were rising, smothering the sky...
The orchards were burning...
The horses were running...
The inn was aflame...
The green was red,
and far too still.
Again.
The distant screams and howls were out-competing the roar of the flames nearby...
She burned - burned!
with the heat of Saidar,
with the deep and desperate need for revenge...
This time,
by LIGHT,
the Shadow would PAY!
She rounded the corner and -
FLASH!
- nothing but the burn of the flash's after-image and the partly obscured residue of glowing threads remained.
Again.
Calia awoke, opening her eyes to the dark stillness of the night. There was no residue, no burning after-image affecting her line of sight. Just the darkness, the shadows, the lack of light. She sighed, releasing a rush of breath she hadn't realised she was holding. What did it mean?
Her head, as well as her heart, ached.
What in the Light had they faced at Four Kings and, before that, on the Plain of Lances? What manner of Shadow were they facing now, as they headed towards Ebou Dar? It was nothing she had encountered before, that was for certain - not in all of her hundred-plus years.
She had her suspicions.
And they went beyond even the possible growth of vileness once again, to a set of circumstances that were far, far worse.
Had the Tower tarried too long before setting Sisters out in earnest for this task?
Were they too late?
The darkness, the shadows, a lack of light - was that all that would lay ahead for them now?
She squashed the thought as quickly as she knew how.
She didn't like to believe that there was no hope.
Light!
They would prevail again! Surely. She was not the only Sister who had trained and dedicated her life to the cause of standing ready for these days - and surely they could not be completely outnumbered!
But still. How to move forward when it felt like everything was possibly going dark?
Her thoughts chased themselves around and around in her head, the implications weighing heavy on her heart.
Eventually, Elessar stirred and Calia felt her attention shift out toward him through their bond.
To any other, he would have seemed asleep, but she knew better. The warder was keen readiness wrapped in stillness, not sleep. The bond between them hummed with his presence, solid and steady, a warm weight she had long since adjusted to having linked with her own mind. She allowed her thoughts to slow, concentrated on matching her breathing with his. It had been months since the weave had settled between them, tying them together, making them one, and still, she could not help but marvel at how different this attachment was to the others she had known. How natural it had - and still - felt.
She had known that the moment of their bonding would be significant, had expected the weight of it, the shift in awareness that had inevitably come. But nothing had prepared her for the sense of familiarity that had swept through her as those threads of Spirit settled into place. That sense of oneness that still remained. It had been like stepping into a current already moving in the exact direction of her own, something deeper than mere compatibility or shared purpose. He had felt… aligned. Strength beside strength, quiet resolve beside her own. It had not required adjustment so much as acceptance, as though she had simply to recognise something she had always known to be true.
Rolling towards him in the half-light, she studied her warder for a long moment. His breath came slow and steady, his features were softened in the quiet of night. A protector. A warrior. A poet. And her gaidin. Someone who, despite all reason, and her previous intentions, felt to her like an anchor in the storm.
The weight of their task had settled heavy on her shoulders, doubt lingered like a shadow in the edges of her thoughts. The Vileness had not been completely rooted out—of that, she was certain. The battle near the Plain of Lances had been but one battle before all the battles unfolding, and the power their enemies had wielded there had left her more than wary. Whether the earlier winds had settled or no, the road ahead of them was uncertain, and the storms were sure to come.
Now, knowing that the secrecy of their current mission had been compromised and that there had been similar levels of power at play during their journey, it was almost impossible to know who to trust.
But at least they had each other. Not everything was going dark. The light of hers and Elessar's bond was unmistakable - and they would be steadfast. Together. And as ready as they could ever be.
. . .
Her thoughts drifted from the Warder by her side to Liss, Neve and Emine - her Sisters across over a century of time and every possible combination of space.
They too, were proven anchors in chaotic times.
Her heart ached at the distances that lay between each of them currently. She had Elessar by her side, true, and his strength was appreciated. But what she wouldn't give for one of Lissinda's pertinent stares, Emine's flirtatious laughs or Neve's gentle strokes of her hair!
There were some things only a Sister of the Tower could understand - and those three knew it all when it came to her past and her present. They had seen her at her best and worst, steadied her when she had been too broken to stand, held her and shielded her from herself when sudden grief had driven her everything toward instant destruction. They would understand the twisted mess of her heart at all of the recent events, rumours and news. And surely, surely, they could still be trusted.
Light, it would be good to have even one of them by her side...
She closed her eyes again, exhaling softly.
Sleep took her once more, and, in her dreams, the past and the present blurred...
. . .
FLASH!
This time the FLASH! OF LIGHT was one she knew.
Would never forget.
Neve and Emine held her
as tightly as they were able
with the Power
as well as with their hands.
Their voices were fierce
and insistent,
but Calia heard them not at all.
She sank to her knees in the red sand,
her face streaming with tears,
her hands covered with the blood
of both of her brothers.
Of the shadowspawn they, and she, had killed.
Liss stood fifty paces in front of them all,
a handful of Sisters by her side, ending the very few shadowspawn that were left alive on the field.
More than one of the Sisters looked
back at Calia with pale expressions of horror.
Her flash of light had decimated almost
the entire field of trollocs
in a single burst.
And then, she had simply screamed again,
wordlessly,
drawing more - and more - and more - of saidar,
ready to kill them all and Light take her!
It. was. not. enough!
It had not been enough, but somehow now, beneath the memories of the grief, the rage, the helplessness... a whisper of strength was flowing between her and her Sisters.
A whisper...
...A whisper that took on the voice of all three of her anchor-Sisters,
and the Wise One she had, at that time, been yet to meet.
The Wheel Wills...
...And Where there's a Will
... There's a Way .... For the Light!
FLASH!
The dream twisted.
FLASH!
Nothing but residue.
It was dark. So dark. So cold.
Where was she?
Where was the Light?
Carefully, she embraced the source.
FLASH!
A globe of light glowed, far, far above her outstretched hand.
The Light.
The warmth.
She needed it to be bigger, brighter, closer, safer!
She drew a little deeper, and this time, in the space between sleep and wakefulness, her hands moved, her thoughts became action.
The threads twisted, and -
FLASH!
Calia's eyes flew open just as the sliver of light before her became a blinding rent in the darkness of night. The light split the darkness.
A window - no larger than the width of her shoulders, hung in the air before her.
And through it - impossibly -
A Saldaean chamber
she had not seen with her own eyes in years.
She sat bolt upright, her hand flying to her mouth.
Through the sliver of that impossible window, was Neve, newly standing, astonished and instantly surrounded by the glow of saidar, her dark eyes wider than Calia had ever seen them. Kerin was drawing his sword, an equal look of shock and action on his dark features.
Calia's breath caught, the impossibility of it all striking her like a physical blow.
It was real.
REAL!
"Ca-?"
"Emi-!"
The window snapped shut.
The residual glow of threads slowly dissipated into the dark.
Cal studied them with wide eyes, her breath coming fast, her heart hammering against her chest as if it would break free of her ribs. She grabbed fistfuls of blanket to stop her hands from trembling. Threw the blankets aside.
The space before her was as dark and empty as it had been when she'd fallen asleep, but she could still see that room, the warm realness of it, the stunned expressions, the way Neve's lips had just begun to form her name.
"Elessar!" she hissed, knowing he was also now wide awake.
"Did you see that?"