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Not necessarily.

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This is way to deep my head is hurting

 

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The plan is working...

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Deep in thought floats the burdened mind

Unloded stress which you may find

Upon the use of thoughts abyss

Contemplation conflicts with this

 

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Thats like realy deep

 

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I'm guessing the conversation should make me feel loved... at least by some of you. :P

 

Let's see.... something deep to make dragonsworn1991's head hurt.....

 

Half-past twelve the clock read in the dead of the night. Nothing but shadows and thoughts to occupy a brain that was troubled. Thoughts of pain, thoughts of hurt, thoughts of sadness, thoughts of tiredness. Oh, for it all to end, if only it would all end. The unfairness of life, why do we all have to be different, why do people have to be unkind. What is there left to live for when life holds no good anymore. No good at home or away, no good at work or at play, nothing worth holding on to, nothing. It’s nothing, it’s just in your head, there’s nothing wrong with them. It must be me, it must be I, oh, why, oh, why. An emptiness deep in my chest, a void that can’t be filled up. Just pain and hurt and sorrow lie there with nothing to soothe it. The pain, the pain, oh, the pain. If only it would just go away.

 

Why not silence it for good then, why not make it go away. It is only something that you feel anyway. Why not silence it forever and live in eternal bliss. Why not stop it from happening ever again. Falling into the void, in the never ending darkness. Falling, always falling with no way to stop it. No way out, no way up, only falling, endless falling. Falling into yourself. Self destructing by the minute, no way out, no way. It can’t get better, how could it get better. No one cares, no one knows, yet it must be plain. Always living half dying because of the pain. Going through the motions of someone else’s life. Still every day falling more and more into the void, more pain to be added, more hurt to be gained. Oh, for it all to end, what else could be left in the end.

 

Then dawn breaks and then I see, someone had stopped me. Somewhere along the way a hand had brought me up you see. While I was lost they found me, all the while unknowingly. The sun feels good upon my face as I wonder at what might have been. Still not easy, still hard, but the sun helps. The warmth, the kindness, the accepting ways. The promise of much brighter days. They didn’t know, they hadn’t heard, but still there was the comforting words. There was nothing wrong with me, as normal as can be. Some hard times they may be, but all have hard times I see. I might not be so wrong, might not be quite so alone.

 

So much life left yet for me, so much left yet to see. Regaining my feet I move on, and try to stay above the void. It still becons, it still calls, but the sun is sweeter and that’s where I’ll stay. Sometimes I may falter a bit and my foot may make a little slip. In the end there’s always an arm, to pull me out into the sun once more.

 

Deep enough?

 

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Omg Taei I totally know the feeling.

 

Heartbreak is very hard :'(

 

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Wrote that a long time ago.

 

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It feels like the spamming has come to a slow

 

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The spam it flows much like the tide

To wax and wane, to play and hide

But we march on towards the end

And continue the spam with a friend

 

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Same I love your verses.

 

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Me, too!

 

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Too soon started though I think

It's hard at times to find a link

Between conversation and a rhyme

Again and again, time after time. 

 

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but you always come through

 

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Weekend... spamming slows then.

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Yeah, tells you how many around here post while at work.

 

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lol thats true

 

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*nods*

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Or those that come from crappy timezones

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I am eastern standard

 

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Central Standard time zone here

But bosses over shoulders never I fear

Third shift work is my fortay

allowing me to hide from the day

 

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Central time zone here, too.  I work in a "goldfish" bowl of cubicles (entire floor is a maze of cubicles) where anyone that passes my 'cell' can see what is on my monitor.  However, I am supposed to be moving next month to an room where my cubicle will be the farthest in the room of 4 so hopefully, I'll have better "protection" from prying eyes! LOL!  Plus, I'll have a window!  Maybe my next move will even give me a door.  That would be nice. ;D

 

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I would love to be able to go to an office... full of cubicles or not! lol We'll find out tomorrow I hope. *crosses fingers* Anyways, I slow down in the weekends because ALL the kids are here ALL the time.... My posting usually happens on those in-between moments.

 

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The weekends are kinda slow for me to

 

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Fleeting weekends spent relaxing

After days of work so taxing

A common trait to lounge around

Is the trend that I have found

 

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