But then a friend of mine wasn't feeling good

And since I'm a friend and was nearby and was also one of the leaders of the trip, I ended up sitting with him and had been rubbing his back to help him feel better

And he just needed to lay back and I said he could against me with his pillow on my chest/shoulder (so I'm laying with my back against the window/wall and he's laying with his back on me)

And I slept so much better

And there's been other random times

Be it sharing a bed with a friend on a trip or having my younger brother crawl in bed with me the other night (he's 8 and had a bad dream) or anything else, I just rest easier when there's someone else physically close

And a small pat on the back or a hug or hand squeeze can do so much to help me relax or just feel a spark of connection with humanity

and it's odd to me that physical contact can mean so much

It's one of those things that I feel like is not a normal thing with post people

But then, I've never claimed to make any sort of sense. 

Hmmmm..... I'm feeling like doing song lyrics now

I'll do it to a song that I also made a video for

(I wouldn't recommend watching the video if you watch the TV show Merlin and don't want any spoilers for how it ends :P )

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder

'Til it was a battle cry

"I'll come back when you call me,

No need to say 'goodbye.'"

Just because everything's changing

Doesn't mean it's never been this way before

All you can do is try to know who your friends are