Overeager

Good-for-pretty-much-nothing

Self-loathing

Failure

And I don't really matter.

And this is one of those things

Where it would be nice if people would, you know, see this, and think about it

But more than likely if they saw it they'd think worse of me for it.

Cos I'm just a whiny stupid girl.

Yeah. Can't win.

So I'm mostly glad no one is ever going to see this but me.

I don't know if I can sleep though.

I still pretty much want to just die.

I HATE life right now.

It's like every stupid thing that ever has happened to make me doubt myself, and want to give up...is happening at the same time now.

Well...I don't want to be strong.

I just want it to stop.

I don't care how

As long as it does.

I want people to care again.

I want people to be happy when I'm around, instead of upset.

I want to know that there's not something wrong with ME.

That I just need to learn better behaviors.

But...

"I want."